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2012-02-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

While having my emo night last night, crying till 4am in the morning, etc, I viewed all my post from august 2008 till now. Lots of changes in me. from typing style, to my way of handling stuff, to my way of letting go three different yet special friendship, to how i meet my new close friends and once again lose them, to....
Every single friendship. That most unforgettable three were really a hard time for me. Every single time i told myself not to go close to anyone, i will still have someone special in my heart. I mean friend. Some people might misunderstand me with such. However, to me, friends are something that is more important than love, more important than myself. I treasure friendship like GOLD.
After handling three such great problem, now, im having another friend that is special to me. And i doubt anything will happen to fast as we are still being very straight to one another. First few year is always like that, the real test is like after two years or so? Yeah. But i know, if this turns out to be a failure... My cycle will repeat and yes, its gonna be a HARD time for me.

Indescribable pain.

2012-02-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

I have to pull myself together. This period of time, i should be enjoying myself with all the exciting events planned. I do not want this part of me to spoil the fun.

Went out with the puipuis, i laughed, i played hard, i crapped nonsense as usual, everything as usual. However, in me, i still feel down. I know i can get rid of that. Because this shouldnt happen. Once one of my ah puis said that im abit not right in my mind, like too crazy... Instead of feeling happy, instead of thinking that its really crazy, i replied her "My mind, sot alr." And then after that i told her, maybe its just my lowest part of my life now. Will be over soon.

After reflecting alittle while on why am i behaving like this today. I realised that im trying to numb myself by being a clown, by trying to show that im okay, by smiling and laughing all the way through.

I hope this nightmare will be over soon. Really.
Btw, ytd i received a message. _ asked me whether im alright, surprisingly, i did not mention a single thing about what happened. Not that im lazy to type or what. I just think that, you are asking this just to show that "Oh im caring too. Cannot lose to _ " However on the other side, i refuse to say cos you are already troubled with your own fucked up lifestyle, i do not wanna start conver and i have to handle yours before mine. Moreover, i do not wanna add on to your burden.

At this rate im going, i think recovery time will increase... Damn...

Cant give up.

2012-02-11T01:45:00.002+08:00

Lots of things to mention. But maybe i just name two. Family and once again genre.

Family. Few months ago, Mum and dad quarreling almost every single day, but now they stopped.
However, dad has been cold towards mum and she felt troubled at times. But sometimes, he is so sweet to mummy. Today dad did the same thing again. I dont know why. But im really afraid. Afraid of him stop loving my mum... Mum did check up today. Found out that she have fatty liver and more stones growing in her tummy. Worst thing, her private part, internal rotten. Because when she's young, she dont take care. First thing she worried was dad. Cos she said this is something very dirty and embarrassing as you know, they do "that" sometimes. Till they stopped...
Im really afraid one day he stopped loving her anymore. I've talked to him through sms. But he ignored... I really want them to last as long till they die. Worried for this. Cos its my family. Its something that will be there for me anytime, anywhere.

Genre. Members are getting lesser. 8. Only 8. Every single day, have been thinking about what actually happened. Worst part is always after practice... Okay, to be honest, i can see some really into genre alr. But still... left 8. To be honest, we cant lose anyone already, cant afford to lose any members. Whatever all these troubles about handling genre and the members, no matter how tiring and vexed i am, i think some stuff, its just... like this.
However, i always rmb what alex said. "I rather teach those few that wants to learn than to teach thousands with no passion." Its true. But ever since i stepped into the comm, ever since i know how TRCC works, i really want to make GEnRe a HUGE ensemble with large amount of people sharing the same passion, pursuing their dreams...
Its impossible. I hope this batch comm will do something to it since i voiced out infront of zaini. And zaini seems to be amazed by that.
Next thing that troubled me today. Months ago, because of my selfishness, i decide to arrange and cut the scores for grand solo. Its like freaking 19 pages to cut and arrange. I decided not to trouble anyone as they are busy and some very tired over school stuff. However, unable to make it on time, i asked sharon to help me. And yes, my nightmare came, lots of mistake in the bass's score. Totally spoiled my mood. Why am i so careless? Why must i mess up such nice piece and disappoint everyone?! Why am i so dumb...
Genre has always been on my mind anywhere i go. The thought of it gives me strength, gives me courage to be the "voice" of genre infront of TRCC people. The thought of it makes me tear, troubled, angry, inferior, etc. Good and bad. But i really have to say, suckers are always there. And that fact that they are there, just their faces, really make me feel that im not alone.

I hate myself at times. Typing at this in the middle of the night, 2am. Refused to talk to anyone. Unable to share my troubles as im always keeping it to myself all these while. unable to adapt. Not used to allow people handle my prob. Its always me that do all these. So i cant pass it down. Troubling more people, giving people impact or affect them. Hurting them,thats the last thing i wanna do.

Update.

2011-12-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

Well well, i was studying for genetics and i decided to pop by here to say hi:)
What happened lately? Loads of stuff to say. But nah, not today. So tired of reporting the same old thing till i can go bang some wall haha.

Suckers, same as usual:) Caring, loving, sincere, etc. The support, motivation, drive, enthusiasm to everyday in poly? Them.

My puipuis side? Same. Three weeks not having a full count of four rascals but still, some of us still meet up for lunch/dinner:) Something magical about this is that, even if we one month dont meet, once we meet, everything just remains the same. We start off with usual disturbing and GL each other. Then automatically to talking and discussing about own life. But usually they listen to mine more as im very very talkative. Update each other what happen and stuff.

GEnRe? Just passed down. Very worried for Hidayat. He need those support from the rest of committees and his fellow members. That day i was have a HTH talk with him. And if possible, if time allow me to, i will have a small talk with everyone in GEnRe. Its like when he announce when break ends, they dont obey, therefore leads him to a thought of "nobody will listen to me" And thats bad. Reflecting on myself, because i used to have those thoughts, end up my juniors now dont really listen. Im not firm on my own stand and give a very strict dominance in my instructions. I told him about all this, he seems to understand. Well, i will be there for him. Thats the promise i made to myself on the day i decided to hand it over to him. The rest of the committees too, not to forget.

Family? Mum and dad are discussing about moving to which new house and also mum's company. Everyday see she do tired and stuff. Heartache. I tried my best to help her during weekends and even weekdays at night. But still yeah. Ytd we all manage to make her forget about those stress and had fun. I think family support for her is important now. After bro committed a crime, she tried to give him what he wants, freedom. Im not jealous, neither feeling that she is biased towards him. But rather i felt better in a way, cos at least he felt the love from us, sometimes, he even talk to me!:D I remember i wrote him a letter about this, about forgiving and asked him to reflect. Maybe he felt the love but he is a guy so he is unable to show me his love. But definitely i can see that huge change in him. Spend more time with us, treat me mum mum after he got his pay from NS,etc.

About THAT friend. Although i have settled a couple of things for her, but i know there's still more to come. As what one of my suckers says, i have to take care of myself to take care others. So yeah, i gave myself some time to "recover" and im ready for more to come. Well, what i can give is just support and a listening ears. If needed then i will approach. #likeaboss. HAHAH!!!

Post so much! 11PM SOON! Bye~

What a wondeful world.

2011-12-11T11:57:00.002+08:00

We are not powerless. We have tremendous potential for good or ill. How we choose to use that power is up to us; but first we must choose to use it. We're told every day, You can't change the world. But the world is changing every day. Only question is who's doing it? You or somebody else?

It's like I get into a roller coaster, and sit there while it goes up and down and upside down and sometimes I get thrown out and I hit my head, but I crawl back in again and the moment I'm back in, it just keeps on going and going again...all of this, so I can find things out and then I write about the things I find out so you can find them out from me. All the bruises, all the wounds, all the bumps on the head, all the scars, just so I can take that and I can write all these things, and sometimes I say "God, I don't want to be in this roller coaster anymore." But when I think about it, if I'm not right here, then where the hell would I be? On the sidewalk? I wasn't born to stand on the sidewalk, I was born to fly around crazy in the sky!

Aww~ So philosophical zhiyin:D That is why... I CAME TO THIS WORLD FOR A REASON DUMB!
These few days i reflected at night, who i wanna be, what can i be, what am i going to do next, etc. Everything about myself and my friends. My previous thoughts that lead to my actions. My previous speech that lead to some impact on them. Everything.
Happy thing is few days before i actually helped two of my friends on the same night. Its not about showing off or what. But im really happy cos i can see their smiles. Most importantly, they finally looked at their own life in a positive way and not a negative way:) Used to be "I dont wanna live. Why this world can be so.... I hate my life. FML." So on and on.

Great weather, great friends to whatsapp and text with (companions), great chair, great lappy, great bed, great muscleache, great fishy and... GREAT ZHIYIN! BYE~~

Theories.

2011-12-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?

This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy!

Bored.

2011-12-07T14:25:00.004+08:00

Good afternoon:D
Im having class presentation now and its not my turn, so i decided to rant my feelings here as i felt very uncomfortable here. *points heart*
I dont know what happened. But i felt damn terrible inside, as if like something is pulling me, someone is troubled. First thing i thought of was my friends. Those particular ones. Because i know we have somehow a type of telepathy about this. Anyone feel terrible, i can feel it too. But i chose not to text to some. Because i know that SOME of them will start argument with me again. And i do not want to make them worst. As much as i want to be there, i thought of the consequences, it will make it worst for them. I rather not to be there than to hurt more.

These few days, i realized this particular person play a part in my life. I kinda made this person important and special to me already. But i am confused with my heart. Im still having this phobia to have another special friend because after 3 years, i will suffer if it turns unsuccessful again. I need a friend that can stay throughout with me and not me stay throughout with him/her!! Friendship needs two hands to clap. Treating it unconditionally is something will never care about. I do it from my heart, not for the sake of it.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE... HOLIDAY IS COMING SOON BABY~ I cant wait! My outings with ah puis, my suckers, my other cliques, my family, and so many more! My driving BTT, my operation, Christmas celebration and wow! HAHAH!! Although its like two weeks but its still a break from the stressful life and better still, i can have some time alone!:D
Im going to try new cakes, new challenges and new thing is... BREAD! I just bought a bread machine. So going to master it:D Then start my fushion cooking again. Previously, i invented italian-asain cooking style. This time round, i kinda want to make a Mexican-France kinda taste:D
Oh of course, not to forget about the rascals in rainbow school:D I promised them i will be back during the holidays:) Swimming, teaching and outing with the kids there:)

Mum's company is getting profit now. Its a good news. However we are trying ways to get more $$ as my mum and her partner worked like hell and another two shareholders just sleep at home and still can earn the same amount as my mum! I know this is my mum's dream, but if she allows me to choose, i rather her to stop work and increase her life span then to work so hard, get so stress (Especially when she is ill now), and decrease her life span. Heh, she need to see my grand-daughter one okay! HEH HEH

Each one of us is left to choose our own quality of life and take pleasure where we find it with the understanding that, like Mum used to say, sooner or later something's gonna get you.

Motivation.

2011-12-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

I know i have lots of things to settle, lots of emotions to handle, but all these, seems to be normal/nothing to me. All those factors, although it is torturous, but with the support and smiles from my friends and families, really encouraged me to face them bravely. I really don't know what i did in my previous life to have such gift.
Especially for now, when i start to grow up as an adult, especially obstacles faced in poly life, i met my "angels". My suckers. I do not know why i deserve to have them, but i know, at this very crucial period of time, i have them by my side. Its damn seriously magical. When my emotions are negative, be it sad or angry, once i see them or rather see their smile, i will tell myself "Everything will be alright,you can do it!"

I remember it all started out from sec 2. When that first special friendship just went off all of the sudden. Then followed by my ultra close "sister", to another special friendship. I have not let all of them go yet anyway. But then, still, life have to go on right~~ Whats mine will be mine:D

After few years of struggling with my life, i tend to treat it slightly better. Looking on the bright side. No longer that Zhiyin that hate her life so much. Dislike everything that is coming towards her. But after learning all those, i want to share my thoughts with my friends around that is unhappy with their life. However, they do not understand, maybe they have to experience it themselves:)

"How many 10 years we have in our life?" We have to really treasure them. Because after today, whatever that you think of, it will be something called regret. No turn back time. Live it to the fullest.

P/s Because i dwled the blogwriter app ah~ So i can blog anytime,anywhere:P

Tired.

2011-12-06T23:06:00.003+08:00

Just when i thought today was the best day of the month so far... You ruined it. Never thought it was you though, as i know, receiving your text message is the happiest thing to be seen on my phone.
I do not know what reaction i could react other than being disappointed.
You told me once; i gave you the power to do anything, everything. But now, you played around with your words. You said you need me, so I gave you my heart, my ears. As you explained to me what happened, I know it’s the same thing that makes you troubled. But I didn’t give up on listening, did i? I still continue to ask and try to sort things out for you so that you won’t suffer. However, your words just pissed me off. Not that I do not know how you feel or rather what happened. Just that my words don’t give an impact to you anymore! Any advice given, you disagree/ were unsatisfied. Any consoling from me seems to be sarcastic to you.

Friend, I have already showed you that im there. But why can’t you see that? Why can’t you see my effort? Why are you influenced by their comments? Why you want me to suffer by keeping me by your side and torture me?!

Skipped school

2011-12-06T12:17:00.003+08:00

Well well, woke up late today, super lazy to rush to school, therefore i skipped school:P
Two of my suckers are coming to my house for a nap before going for GEnRe practice!
This is the thing, i said im lazy to move but from 9am to 11am, i have been running around.
Cycle to the doc to get an appointment, then cycled back home. Right after that, i cabbed down to RP to open the storeroom for Irene as i promised her to be there. Responsibility. After i reached home, i ran to esso to buy some stuff in case we are hungry. HAHAH! 0.5Kg lost!:D

Im super glad that there is such thing as WHATSAPP. My cousins went to San Fransisco and Korea for 20 days. Miss them so much. Lucky there is whatsapp to update each other:D Even my mum and my aunt are chatting there, taking photos, sending to each other and stuff:P

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

After a long period of time...

2011-12-05T22:41:00.003+08:00

HELLO! AH LAM IS BACK! HAHAH!
Felt damn bored now, so i decided to read my previous posts and started to have flashback all over my head now.
Lately so busy with stuff around me, IG, family, friends, health, studies, etc. Hard to please everyone but i will try my best.
On the 22nd dec, im going to somewhere... great? haha! Okay, yeah, im going to a mior surgery. Super minor one. However that fear is still inside because for the past three years, i went to operation for foot and mouth. Coming out from operation theater, feeling damn cold, bored, lonely staying in the hospital and mum have to come everynight after work. So tiring for her. But this one, do not have to stay in hospital ah~ HAHAH! Nvm, i know i will be brave on that day and go for it:D This is a small one, big one i have already experienced it. This is not gonna affect me at all:D

Have been talking about life. Many things to think. Even sometimes i allow myself to spend time alone, i do ask myself lots of questions. Solving lots of things and encouraging myself. Every night i will stare at the ceiling and encourage myself before starting a brand new day:)

Someone, in the sea for long, he have to shout for people to help him by pumping air into his float, allowing him to survive in the water. Another one, also in the water, but this person, he chose to swim back to the shore by himself to get out of this terrible sea.
I hope that friend of mine start to think about this and turn herself into the second one. Because right now what she is doing is that she depend on others to live and not finding her own way to rescue herself. She rely too much on friends and external stuff but not herself.

New post yo!

2011-04-24T22:35:00.003+08:00

Three years, i have not been coming to this blog. In fact i do not want to continue posting stuff here.
But since i got my friendship back with that friend again, i think i should continue posting to keep these memories going on and on. Just like what she did that make me feel this way and stuff like tat.
Studies... yeah, so far so good. Friends, increasing and currently the closest ones are my suckers(known from guitar club). 2 June will be our anniversary alr!:D Cheers suckers.
Family wise.... yeah, happy family.

Yeah, so far no problem with life. Except for past few days, ultra big quarrel with my beloved friend. So like... we kinda like cold cold for this few days.
She like... pushing me to other island like tat. And trying to just achieve something without me knowing. She might think its good for us, like in the future. Like improvement la... but now currently what happened was... in fact, the more she do, the more drifted apart we are.
haha!:d
toodles~~ I shall go off.
Bye.

2010-11-05T23:56:00.003+08:00

YO! Long long long time no see!
Lately, too busy for blogs, posting or viewing. Ever since school starts, this happened. In class, facebook,ppt and chat alr occupy everything. Then guitar practice till late till whole month so tired. Then nov, So tired everyday when i reach home. Do rj and then chat and then 11 go and sleep alr.

So... Oh! My class! W15D. Not bad. Just that E24Q is still number one. This class kinda boring for some friends there. But theres also one group all siao siao and dont concentrate in class one. You should know where i am la:D With Grace,Farihin,Mavis,Amirah,Sugu,Xinyi,Fatin, Nimmi,Janani and Seb. Not bad.

Guitar practice starting again! Best! Today they all staying overnight in ECP. I am suppose to be there too. But because of my dad, i decided not to go. Nvm, most of the suckers are not there. Only lijun and amelia. Sharon and the rest not there.

I am glad that my life isnt that terrible. Kinda lucky with what i have now. But there are still somethings that are still impossible. Friends i wanna make with, people with misunderstandings,people with shy character. But! Those are just... The most important thing is still... WHAT I HAVE NOW!:D

Saved money till $90 alr. I am going to save. Then can treat them, can go overseas with the cliques in future, can help to sponsor the poor. Use the money to do some meaningful things:D

2010-11-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

Gosh!! How long I nvr update alr?! Hahaha!! Ok ok. Tmr sure!! I will update!!:)

2010-10-26T08:32:00.003+08:00

Damn.... My previous faci is now in my class. And my current faci just came in hee hee.
Now, i can see the gan chiong face of my faci:P
Today,long day. thought of not coming but... ya... got practice. but if ltr cannot take it, i think i have to go home half way through the lesson.
Ok will update more ltr. Starting of class alr. bye

2010-10-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

Just settled down...
Damn weak now. Really weak. Gonna sleep after this.
Ok so... As usual, today's lesson was fun. Only friday is the best la! Tears and laughters. All different races but shared the same thinking and jokes.
Tmr, have to wake up at 10 to meet sharon, fatin, amelia, and the rest.
Thought of asking everyone out for lunch tmr, then on the way, pass them the tickets. But then cos of some reasons, i cancelled that thought.
Tmr whole day till midnight will not be home. Should be zombie after that?

Just when i am trying ways to forget about somethings/someone, there's always another one come in and distract me and pulled my heart away. Seriously, it felt good, real good. But when conflicts or separations comes along... It felt damn saddening and lonely and of course... TERRIBLE. Although i still feel the pain and... but...
However, i always remind myself, Who am i? What am i? Where am i? I am not supposed to be ___. If i continue my nonsense, i am going to destroy things again. I am being disliked alr, cant make things worst.

2010-10-21T22:49:00.002+08:00

Today, damn tiring. REALLY.
Totally over stressed this afternoon till classmates were afraid of me. Cos of my stupid black face, Scary meh?
Dont talk about it alr.
Damn tired. Sleeping soon.
Tmr have to wake up at 6 for wake up call to sharon.
Today, i felt that fatin has a very... blur and retarded and idiotic tone when talking. And i think she's seriously cute and funny at times. Her blurness damn retarded. We have a funny thing about each other, we are "rude" to each other. Endless shootings and endless disturbance to each other. For instance today, i talked to her nicely and gently. She didnt response, till i shouted at her then she "huh" me. HAHA!
Kinda miss her now though. But tmr we are meeting again! Monday too! For practicing with lijun,sharon,fatin,karice,kimberly,amelia,nadia, and others.
Ok seriously... im damn tired. Shall sleep now and tmr is new day. NEW DAY.

2010-10-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

Today, after school went to cwp with yeanlin and amelia. Yeanlin and i wanna buy bag, so we walked and found a few nice one. For me la, i got 3 choice. Its ex, but i like. See how la, talk to mum first.
Today, in class, i was ultra stressed+pissed off till i walked out of the class for a couple of times. DAMN HIM MAN! Anyway, lucky Grace+XinYi saw it then they went out and look for me. Got chilled and then it repeated-.- If you think you wanna do one man show then please, create a team 6. Go. We do not need someone smart but selfish and arrogant in our group. Ytd after got scolded by grace still wanna repeat mistake. HOW MANY TIMES YOU WANT W15D TO BE ANGRY?! And when i talk, i m fucking talking to you, not to the wall! Told you thrice today!"Hello!? I am not talking to the wall" ARE YOU DEAF?!

Tmr, its team 2. So far so good la:D Got one nerd and of course 3 ah siaos:D
FRIDAY IS THE BEST:D I leave it to friday to say la:D

I am lucky this time round. Its not that difficult as i thought it should be. Its easier to forget and let go than what i thought it would be. I thought it will give me another few months of misery again... But this time, i do not need to take that long time. Maybe cos of few months of knowing her only, then not much memories compiled? And of course, after telling her i am the new zhiyin that wont.....(secret), she did give me freedom. Seriously, cos i were to continue, i know, her thoughts about me will be worsen. And of course not to allow her to be bisexual. I know you are reading. But i know, sometimes you told me you need me, its fine with me, i showed already,i said it already. I'm still there. I answered your call in the middle of lessons and middle of the night. BUT! PLEASE! Dont... Dont...(secret)
*note: Please, i do not hate you. Dont think too much. Not good for you, and also me.

2010-10-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

*coughing damn hard* Wa, lately RP spreading virus ar, then GEnRe lots of people sick. Damn heartache. Me too. I also kept coughing and also flu. Gosh Damn irritating.
Today woke up earlier abit as we accompanied yeanlin to school. She starting at 8 on tues ma, instead of 830. Ya. Woke up at 630, then get ready. Reached school, ate breakfast with amelia, sat and chat till 815 then took lift up to class.
Random: Ytd, Fatin msned me saying she missed me. Today, after i went home, for some reasons... I kinda miss her now. LAME~~
OH! Tmr! Chemistry! Then after that go and see bag with yeanlin and amelia. Then at night meeting grace for some~~ *horny face*
Monday, Lijun,Fatin,Sharon and me might be meeting to play guitar. MAYBE.
Today lots of my classmates finally bond together. We girls, during presentation, most of us went out to toilet. Then all gathered at the balcony and start chit chatting. Then alots of them commented on me:D "zhiyin, you damn friendly and nice person man! I thought you are fierce! scary!" After mavis said that... ALL start talking about me! Bloody shit! Blush like shit! But this class so far, no conflict. Hope it will remain like this. OH! Xinyi didn't come to school today, WHY!! Hope she comes tmr, she's in my team:( Oh! And i made a new friend called pengyu, from china. Cool thing is she is from shandong too and we kinda have... endless conver. Oooo, china friend~~ (racist/country-ist/china-ist:P)

New zhiyin from today onwards.

2010-10-18T08:17:00.003+08:00

When i say new, its only regarding about somethings i will change. The rest, i wont be changing. Only regarding about one thing. And that thing is only i know. I am going to change my attitude, my thoughts about someone. Only that someone. I am going to stop EVERYTHING!

Tired...:(
From 10pm to 1 am, i keep waking up every 15-20 mins. WHO DONT ALLOW ME TO SLEEP?!
From 5am til 6am, i woke up again and again!:( WHO WOKE ME UP! Therefore, today... i'm tired:(

Went to school early,reached early. So we went to cafe and sat for awhile before leaving. Send yeanlin off then we walked to W1 together.

GOSH! MY BATT FLAT! OK OK I GO AND CHARGE NOW!!

1113 pm

2010-10-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

Hello. Had a great family time outside. Everyone watching some funny shows. I liooke:)
School Tmr, seriously, I don't wanna go. Maybe it's just fourth day la, so maybe not into this class. Still missing everyone in e24q. I really miss them. Mufang,nano,Alvin,Berlinda,fiona, Cassandra, elizabeth, crystal and the rest. I still can remember the night I cried for them. I remember the pain in my heart, damn sour and pain.
However this class there are lots of friendly people, just that maybe they are still not the ones that can replace E24Q. Some good friends I know are like grace,liyuan,fatin,amirah,sugoon,xinyi and mavis. They are some la. There are more but then, I guess need time for me to open their heart. They too shy.

2010-10-17T21:25:00.001+08:00

Forget to add on. Ok I admit now I'm blogging in the toilet, shitting ar..:$
Ya I was saying, because lately the weather is really really kee siao alr. So please everyone, take care of yourself. Drink lots of water and also eat lots of fruits for vitamins. And exercise too to build ur immune system. Dont be like me, too weak internal that's why fall sick. Ok I admit:( because of lately happenings and troubles make me weak. But!! I swear, RP is really spreading virus.
Please please take care of yourself everyone!! Not me being naggy, but... Just care and concern:)
Oh!! Update bout my latest report. It's bad again. And now that I'm sick, like really damn sick. Cough,flu, hot hot, sexy voice,sorethroat and also abit of depression. Can't expect hor!!:) doc say I got depression-.- you all la!! Hahah!! Blame others!! You all la!! Go out go out!! Hahah!! Hope they see this wont hoot me man.

2010-10-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

School starting soon, and i dont feel like going to school.
Maths tmr. Heard from the rest, its amaths tmr.
Tmr... got some busking in the library,playing "let it be". Kinda nervous but happy too. Cos someone is coming to see me:D *shy*
Tuesday,thurs and friday practice. Damn tired. BUT! Lately cos of some addiction, i kinda... felt shiok:D
Sat is arielle's bd. Last year, i wasnt there cos of O's. Speaking about that, i do miss those times whereby everyone at home,chionging, plucking their hair. HEADACHE!!! I still remember i called people for help, receive calls too (also for help). Even though till today, there are still this type of things going on. BUT! Those are poly friends ma... not sec-.-
OH! I bought my shirt alr! The waitress shirt:D From Forever 21, lucky sharon told me they sell that man! Else i will be looking for it for YEARS! $19 only. If she didnt tell me, everyday you can see me overstressed by this attire thingy man-.- Thank you sharon:D
Tmr have to wake up earlier to bath. Pong pong.
Regarding bout your calls, its not even a trouble to me. Don't feel bad. I'm there. As i said my phone is just next to me at night:D 24-hours hotline:D

I've learnt my mistake. Sorry.

2010-10-17T11:08:00.003+08:00

This letter was being sent out today. I made an apology to this person. He/she is the one that hinted me lots and lots of time about something. And i turned a deaf ear. But actually he/she was trying to help me. Im sorry. But now, everything should be,should be remaining the same as sec 3. Or maybe even better:D For them la.

2010-10-16T10:32:00.001+08:00

Yo! My voice became so man. Macho~~
Hahah.
It's weekend again! Kinda tiring weekend la. Ltr going out to pray with the girls. Cos leefang and I said we wanna go. As we experience a couple of close death incident together. So if said, we have to go.
Sunday, going to cut my hair. And also buying ingredients for steamboat at night. And also-.- haha,no la and also going to yongling's house to fix her com and teach some basics.
Performance is like two weeks away. Kinda tensed up but also excited. Every Tues,thurs,fri, we are practicing from 5-10... Damn tiring after that. Although we met the expectation from the person-in-charge,which is perfect, but we didn't met our conductor's expectation.
I wonder why a few couple of people like to post saying they are happy. "im a happy girl now."I mean,what for? Trying to hide their dark side?? Trying to show the others they are happy without them. Or just trying to lie to themselves?? It maybe... Just nothing to post-,-
Haiss got to go. Do not wanna drag further.

The power of words:)

2010-10-14T22:45:00.001+08:00

I'm happy with the fact that you are quitting it. Today, I heard it and I felt it. It's good. Nah, It was a no need for you to go for counseling or a talk for me. It's you. Whether you have the heart to do it. Not my advantage. It's yours:)
Today, I ask you to take it one more time, it's cool. And ur answer was "no,I am notgoing to touch it anymore. I made a promise with you. And I do not want to disappoint you." When I heard it, I swear, I wad happy and felt so proud of you!!!:) I really hope you made it. Quit it man!!:) you have my support.
Don't cry while reading:) mono/emo/cool girl cannot tear!!

Sick sick sick and sick.

2010-10-13T22:15:00.001+08:00

Slight slight fever.
My tummy hurts again... From morning till now. Just now kept telling Vivien 100000X I wanna shit. But when I go toilet... Nothing-.-
Now my head hurt like some freak!! Damn pain. Squeeze till I can't open my eyes properly, have to frown and strain my eyes...
My leg, just cut ten cent sized skin from my toe. But the roots still there. And when I apply the medication from doc, he said burning, and I can see my skin sudden turn ultra white. Can feel the ultra heat. But then!!! It's not helping me!! Doc say it's way too long alr, it's about three to four months. Therefore, he said, if still not curing, have to really go op or hospital to cut it out. My concern is studies and performance and outing and...
Why is that it's always those things happened then lots of thing will happen to me and then it make it like a retribution?? If it is, next time, if it fails again, make me die. I think best. After all time bomb is ticking too. I do not wanna wait. Just go man.
Time bomb, sometimes you don't tick, sometimes you tick fast, sometimes you tick slow. What you want?? Happiness is it!!!

2010-10-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

There are somethings i can stand, there are somethings i cant stand.

Went out with the girls again. Vivien came over at 11?? Ya, supposed to be 1030-.- Then we waited till 130 then meet the two up. Went to bugis for the xiao long bao and the cold duck. The bill was liks... $70? Around there la. So shiok!! Every mouth of the xiao long bao, sure got expressions on our faces. On our way there, i cant resist alr. So somehow someone(dunno is viv or me) saying that our hands are itchy feel like hearing coin sound. So i walked to the map there, "ONLY ONE STOP!!:d"
SO!! AFTER LUNCH!! WE WENT THERE!!! So cool!!! SHIOK!! I put $5=50 coins, and somehow kept catching the turtle and the dunno what fish. 40 coins -> 40coins -> 20 coins -> 30 coins. SHIOK MAN!!! YOU HEAR THE COIN SOUND, ITS DAMN SHIOK!
Tmr, school starting, new classmates and friends. Lunch mates too. This time round, i hope..... ya. I hope.
This two month, sept and oct, two months, sounds short. But between this TWO months, there are so many things happening at a time. From the ending of something and also starting of something, and also some changes here and there. Quarreling, heartbreaking, growing stronger, growing weaker, kept changing of status, kept changing of anger, kept changing of treatment of this person that person, this person that person also kept changing treatment towards me.
CONFUSED.

2010-10-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

Im back. Shiok.
I kinda like today:D How i wish today wont end that early man...
Met my friend, went to her house for a while to slack alittle first. Then head to marina square for HK cafe and then marina barrage. Sunset,picnic,chatting,long long chatting, enjoying the night breeze, and then soon ltr at 845?? We left that place and head home. Reached home at 950? 951? HAHA! Around there la!
Tmr vivien will come over to my house at 1030. Called her just now cos i do not wanna leave house that late at 1pm... Then end up, she said she also wanted to tell me that she wanna meet earlier. HAHA!! Suddenly felt like playing the "coin machine" in marina square-.- BUT TIME!!! NOT RIGHT!!:( SAD!!!
Talking to yean lin now on msn, abit dumb leh. AHHAHA! keep shouting:D

2010-10-10T10:56:00.001+08:00

Going out with SOMEONE ltr~~~ a belated birthday celebration:) muahahahah!!! Happy to the max. First is because it's 101010 today!!! Second, is because.. Finally I get to celebrate with her. ALONE!!;) everytime when we SMS each other we said how much we missed each other, said we wanna meet, but time doesnt give us the chance to do it. But! Today!! Can!!:)
I swear tonight, its gonna be a romantic one:) celebrating a 7 years friendship, her birthday and of course 101010!!!!:)

2010-10-10T01:16:00.001+08:00

I realised I enjoy listening to troubles or some other stuff. It makes me feel... Something to the person that is telling me those. Makes me feel that they think I'm trustworthy or someone that they are comfortable with:)
Lately, lots of thoughts in my mind. So many people. Theres you,you,you, you,you and YOU. Negative, positive, all.
Oh there's something Sharon told me on Thursday which I can't stop thinking about. "不要对我那么好，不然我会舍不得。" and seriously because of this, I felt very... Ya.
Argh!! I hate the down feeling. Ytd felt very not ok. The whole night was seriously too sucky to be mentioned. However I kinda..."ignore" it by doing some silly writings.
Now... I also think... Argh!!!! Nvm. It's 101010 today!! Wanna meet?!:) wooohooo!! Ok!!!
Ok I should go back, else someone will nag at me. My bed:) hahahahahha!!! Siao!! Not funny put so many Hahah-.-
BYE!

Please remember what you promised me today.

2010-10-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

Im very disappointed now. Very. You promised me you wont touch drugs and cigarette. You said you wont smoke. End up, you pulled a black face, not telling me why even when i asked so many times. End up you told me you smoke cos you cant take it. End up complaining you giddy.
Although you said many times you are sorry and guilty, but still,... Disappointed.
After being sarcastic, after being ultra duper sarcastic... I hope you get my point. Dont just smsed me saying you got it for the sake of not making me feeling sad anymore. Please. I hope my words for you at vending machine, you got it in ur brain. Keep it.

2010-10-08T10:15:00.001+08:00

You chose how you want me to treat you. You chose how you want IT to be. So please... Don't try contradicting urself.
Ytd, someone told me that she didnt mean to say she do not wanna talk to me. And because of that she did some silly stuff. Hahahah!! Silly girl do silly stuff. Anyway... I know her, she was just saying that because she was agitated. And two hot headed one... Of course won't think of that ma!!:) phew now no prob alr.
Heading out now. Woke up at 9 today. Still in pain. Still considering whether to go for guitar outing Tmr to marina barrage for picnic. Lijun Sharon and fatin keep asking us to go. But... Hahah. You know~~~
No matter who are you, what are you, I will accept it. But!! Rmb you promised me something ya??;) school starting alr, don't quarrel anymore.

2010-10-07T19:48:00.001+08:00

If I ask you to stay, will you?? Will you stay to go continue the journey with me once again?? Will you put me as priority like before?? Will you listen? Will you?

2010-10-07T01:40:00.001+08:00

Today was a total fun day. Yuki Yaki, I think don't need to say la huh:) best was I'm addicted to the marina square arcade!! They have this machine, change ur money to token.10 cent for 1 token. So I changed $5=50 token. And Vivien too. We played the catch fish game. Got lots of ka ching ka ching sound, coins dropping:) Vivien didn't lose any money. She gained 80+ tokens!! So shiok!!!:) I simply love that man!! I think the shop should call coin game shop:)
Next week school starting. As what I said, new friends, new clique, new classmates, and finally into my course alr. Buck up zhiyin, you can do it.
Friday meeting Berlinda and the rest, although the time is not long enough, but at least meet them and catch up before school starts. Then guitar practice. Oh!! Tmr also have!!:)
Talked to her just now, she said she will be back during the holidays, I mean what for she come back... Get those nonsense from those people again?? I rather her staying there man, seriously. I don't know whether to tell yong ling anot. Like... Ltr yl will be worrying also. Enough for her alr. She can't take it anymore. Let me do this. However... Haiss i doubt you guys know what I am talking about. Internal thing la huh. No worries, I can handle them. I can. Peace zhiyin peace. Don't let her and her suffer. Please, do ur part.

2010-10-06T01:41:00.001+08:00

It's like 136 now. Time to sleep. Watched television program from 11 till 1. Nioce~~
Dad and I quarrelled because it ends at 1030 instead of 9. But, I don't care. As what I always said, after repeating, is up to the person to listen or not. Their life.
Tmr going out, good, don't need stay at home. Friday meeting fiona Berlinda and yang hong for lunch before going to practice. Muahahah. Now I love practice again:) because guitar one is back!! Love them. Woohoo.
Don't know when the results will be out. Kinda nervous. Kinda worried. Although it's not link to my course but... It's still a result. Haiss. Nvm la. As what yong ling said, i tried my best. And as what I said, look ahead, don't stay there. Think what's next and not what's now.
Ok. I think dont talk too much la. Haisss
Bye

2010-10-06T01:35:00.001+08:00

On our way to esplanade. Show starting at 230.
Slept at 1030, Woke up at 7. Went back to sleep, woke up at 11. Shiok. Like finally a great rest.
Tmr the girls will be coming over to my house. Don't know for what. Hahhaha. No mattress, don't know where they sleep. Hope Tmr weather good. I wanna try out my kite with them, since they are the one buying it.
Tuesday guitar
Wednesday Yuki Yaki for lunch and maybe Chinatown for dessert hahahha!! Maybe some other activities. Hahah. Vivien and I kinda no mood to go there shall see how.
Thursday guitar
Friday guitar
Monday... See how.
Tuesday, new friends, new classroom,new classmate, new faci and.... Daily routine, pdt,ws,ppt and...6p-.- Gosh...

2010-10-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Im tired. Im thirsty. Im in pain. Im feeling very jelly.
Today is finally the last day of SCC. It was happy and sad. We went to many places today. Practically we did not do our job today, we played.
Guitar today was kinda lost. Because i skipped alot of practicess. From thailand holiday to SCC. However i am not really afraid. Cos i went back to GUITAR 1!!;D Back with fatin,lijun,sharon,brendan. We really miss each other.
Today fatin told me again, she miss me sitting next to her to guide her. Felt so happy inside:P
Tmr, going to heeren WARAKU jap restaurant for ultra good food. Got $40 voucher. Using it with da pui,xiao pui and san bo. And of course me pui pui:D WILL BE DAMN SHIOK! Cos ITS FREE! $40 FREE!:D
Sunday,watching concert with amelia. The korea show,NANTA (cooking). They use cooking stuff to make music. ULTIMATE NICE ONE! COS THEY CAME BACK TWICE ALR.

2010-09-30T20:41:00.002+08:00

Today was kinda happening day?
In the morning, a small girl lying on my arms, sleeping. Almost miss my stop because of her, and i was late somemore-.-
Then in the noon, Jace and Farizah somehow got alittle unhappiness between them. Something about the chicks. Then the two kept "shooting"/"suaning" each other. Showing each other attitude. Gosh...
Then on the way home, went home with Jace. So then Jace passed me her ipod and showed me her note. Saying "Bitch beside me. Do not wanna talk to me. As if like she do not know me". Then i was like standing next to her? The atmosphere was damn tense up. Diao here and there. Then Jace faced me and just showed some attitude-.- When we got off, they bang onto each other. And i got to know that they know each other-.- WORST THING is that they are... ah lians?

2010-09-30T10:27:00.001+08:00

Blogging that make me feel so disgusted.
If you insist that I feel the same then it's ok. After all, I said it once again ytd night. It's up to you to listen. If you still think it's bullshit then so be it.
Tmr is the last day of science centre volunteering. I think I will miss the chicks and the fun there.... We three running here and there. And I guess we wont contacting even though we are in the same course. If have fate then... Next sem same class la!!!:)
Even if I want it, you do not. So... No use la. I've tried.

2010-09-29T20:57:00.002+08:00

Feeling very pissed off now.
I went over to take care of you is not because i have any "feelings" for you. I am just treating you as my friend. YOU THINK TOO MUCH. I am a straight person. I am a girl. So do you. If friend's care and lover's care you cant differentiate, please kindly go for some MENTAL lesson. Ask your parents/teacher/yourself or whoever.
I care because you are my friend. And not because i like/love you. Dont get the wrong idea. If this go on, i tell you. I will sure avoid you as far as i could.Seriously.
I care because there isn't anyone there. Because no one can take care of you. So weak how to move. And no one is there to care when you are sick. So i am showing my concern and telling you "hey, there's someone there for you. You are not alone." Not because i have the fucking same thoughts as you. If you wanna be a les, go ahead. Its your prob. BUT please! I am not. OK! Make this clear.
If you wanna get jealous over small thing is also your problem. They are my friends, she is my friend, he is my classmate. I'm not yours. I belong to myself and others too.
I guess you cant differentiate the love and care i shared. Everyone can except you. You went into the wrong direction. I did that to everyone. So please! DONT MISUNDERSTAND MY ACTIONS AND WORDS!
Immediate replies, long messages, kept talking, sweet talks, thoughtful thoughts, touching/warm actions, and so on. ALL those are just normal. It whether you look it as a friend point of view or the other point of view.
My matter there is between us, not you. We both only. NOT YOU. I dont have to report to you, neither i need your help, neither i need a advicer. OK! It will be mean if i say that but i will say. You do not have the right to be one, you udst?
Every single time when i am happy here, sharing my joy with your regarding bout that thing or my close friends side, you pulled a long face or just give me a cold reply. Then when you know things went wrong between her and me. You became so happy and you think you are top of the world. I MEAN LIKE HELLO?! I know you for only 6 months? I know all my friends for like... almost 6 years?? WHATS THERE TO BE ENVY OF! THEY ARE MY FRIENDS!
Think about it. Think through. If you still continue like this(being les/keep confessing all those DISGUSTING stuffs). I have no choice but to really avoid you and also... ignore you. And my reply. I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR LOVER! THANK YOU!

2010-09-29T00:23:00.002+08:00

Blog now so dead.
Lost of happiness or just that writer is lazy? I dunno.
I guess from 12 oct, it will be like alive again. Thats when new class, new friends, new classmates, new lunch mates, new problem, new... HAHA... nah, dont think so far.
Ya, Life now? Same? Except for some matters, it still stays the same.
Another few more days school starting. I guess i have to quickly find some people to message in class else I WILL BE BORED TO DEATH! NOT KIDDING! GRRRRR....
I really dunno what to say. Talk about that again. I will get warning from her. Talk about that, people reading will feel bored and retarded or maybe slapping me. SO! Better dont talk.
Got to go. Not feeling well now. My heart is squeezing. My tummy hurts. My head... same thing. My body aching. DIE! ALL SYMPTOMS ARE HERE! YAY! DOC! I AM COMING!:D -.-
HATE ACTING HAPPY HERE! I dont like staying at home. Make me not me. When i am outside, thats me. At home, i am like... Not zhiyin. BRING ME OUT! I SWEAR! BRING ME OUT! Next monday lijun,sharon and the rest going for dinner at SSC's next door's indian food. Hope it will drag till 9++ Cos... i really hate staying at home....
Where's my enthu to computer? Where's my jumpy hoppy feeling at home? Where's the bubbly zhiyin at home?! Where is the daughter that smiles whole day?! ARGH!

2010-09-27T20:01:00.001+08:00

I'm at newton. With Vivien and leefang. On the way home alr~~~ we went to Chinatown and marina square. We look like those tourist!!;) taking lots of photos and also!!! Try all the food. Those cool food!!:) hawker center order lots of food then put in the center. Like those family;) they are now beside me. One playing game. One listening to my song. Me?? Blogging and listening to my song:)
Tmr is science centre. Hope it's smooth sailing. Hope no smart child come and ask me duff question. Then also hope ar!! I can make it back to GEnRe. 7+. phew. Ok ok I think thats all la. Dunno what to blog alr....

2010-09-26T13:22:00.002+08:00

Its sunday! YI HA~~
I still do not have the courage to cut my toe:( Pain!
Ytd night was.... fun? HAHAH! Chat,games,movie,video and... i think 5 mins talk on the phone??
Tmr is the only day i am free. The rest of the day i will be in science centre. Then next week is OCT alr! Hope its a new start. Hope we will be fine. Hope all things for me will be smooth. Hope everyone stay happy and healthy. Hope... Ya... The last one... I doubt that i can hope for. Hee hee.
Mummy went to jap buffet with all her sisters. Dad went for work. Bro at RP studying. If ltr weather good, i shall go try the kite:D HEE HEE!!!!!! BD present!!:D
Tmr VIVIEN LIEW say wanna bring us eat good food! BETTER BE NICE ELSE! I punish her come over and stay one more night ar! HAHA! Sounds like a reward than a punishment hor!
OH!!! HELLO!!! MY MATTRESS NO MORE ALR! I THREW IT! SO NOW I AM SLEEPING ON A TI-LAM ON THE PLATFORM!!! Damn poor thing like those workers:(
MUMMY! FASTER GET A NICE ONE!
Then by then, lets have a slacking day in my room again. Da pui,zhong pui,xiao pui and san bo:D

2010-09-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

Long time no see blog~~
SUP!
Lately busy with guitar,outing,and some other matters ar...
Then furthermore very lazy to use the computer.
Then also ar... Very reluctant to go MSN,FB viewing "recent post",blogs,twitter,and some other webs.
Dunno what happen also. My life getting more and more simpler. Good in the way, its not complicated. Very direct, very straight. Bad in the way, in case of any... ERHEM! I cant get ready ar....
September seems to be a very problematic month ar? I got prob, friends got prob, you got prob, she got prob, they got prob, EVERYONE GOT PROB! WA! POWER TO THE PEOPLE~~

I will come back and blog soon la...
Very lazy/busy/reluctant to blog. Dont know can blog what. Dont know ltr the contentS will cause any problemSSSSSSSS. Dont know ltr....
SIAN AR!!!!
SCIENCE CENTRE VOLUNTEERING COMING!! GUITAR REFLECTION COMING!! ARIELLE'S 2nd YEAR OLD BD PARTY COMING!!! YOU ARE COMING BACK!!!!!!;D;D;D;D;D;D;D;D;;D;D;D;D;D

2010-09-16T19:00:00.001+08:00

Blog. Other than you, I found other people who I can update with:) so time being, don't be jealous ok??:) ahahahahahhah!!!! Twitt!!
Flying soon. So sian. My plane! Fly!!!

2010-09-16T18:38:00.001+08:00

It's about time.
Smsed to some of them. Have some chat. But not for one. I dunno why. I mean! I felt abit...;(
Have a few words with them. Touch up the BBQ stuff. Laughter and craps in message. Keep exchanging like some rocket. Although who I want wasn't there, but!! At least someone;)
Umm... Ya. Now on the way to T1.
I will miss you. I mean you guys. Hahahaha!!!:) ok done;) fatin!! Dont cry!'muahahahah!!!

2010-09-16T10:11:00.001+08:00

Today is the day.
Many things to buy. So many things to do.
Have to meet them up for preparation. Felt bad as I left them there preparing and I go bkk for fun.
I know that YOU will be worried. No worries. I will be fine. And YOU!! Don't be strong. I know you will miss me. I will too. Really will. And you!! Please take care of urself when I am not there.
I think they can't read this as I changed URL:)
Hahah. Ok goodbye everyone.
I will be back on 20th! By then blog will be hyper and active again!!!:)
Its hard to say bye. I try blogging again in changi:p pray hard hotel's wifi is working man...
Bye~~~

2010-09-16T03:03:00.002+08:00

goodbye everyone:D Last post before coming back:D
Wrote 11 letters, folded 11 of them. Got cut while folding. No fate with papers-.-
tmr going BKK alr. Over there is seriously chaos. The red shirt people start their things again. Pray hard we are fine there. WE will be!
Downloaded twitter. Tested blogwriter on iphone. Steay pom pi pi. Msn... Must see the internet there. Email. checked.
The only thing is... i have not pack laugage-.- Write for 2 hours-.- I mean 3. HAHA!
Ok pack then ong ong. HAHA.
Good night. I will be back!:D

2010-09-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

Installed twitter on phone because of BKK-.- STYLE!

2010-08-14T01:17:00.003+08:00

15th April 2010, we all were stranger.
16th April 2010, we all are friends.
17th april 2010-13 august 2010, we had great time together,memories loaded at the end of everyday. Laughter,tears,hard-work,private conversation, LOTS of happenings, the fun,time we spend together. All those were the most precious thing in this class.
14th august 2010, we "depart" from each other. Pursuing our dreams, going to the next stage of purpusing it.
Its hard to say goodbye. Hugs. Shook hands. Picture taking. Our way to say goodbye. Neither we will say, because, fate will never stop, we will see each other.
Thanks for the memories E24Q!
I will miss you guys like 24/7.
I will never forget you all and keep you all in my heart!
Lets achieve for our dreams together!

2010-08-12T23:36:00.001+08:00

Once in a life time means there's no second chance. Finally I know what it meant:)
I wanna update something but I dunno what's that-,-
I going to have sims 2:) Yean lin gonna dwl for me in my com:) let's build our family and our dream house!! Our that future house:) muahahhaha!!!!
Guitar?? Shiok ar!!! Chords! Let me song song and teared too;) becos I was playing too slowly, my own tempo and sang what the words meant. Heartache:(
Tj is recovering soon. That's great. Umm... Oh!! Genre performance in woodlands library. We are invited. And we brought more audience in as they need 60 youths. They will be playing quite a few songs.
Umm holiday starting. More on the sad side than the happy side. However, ya. It's ok:) we will still contact and meet up:) it's hard to say goodbye:( really hard:( gonna hug them, hope no tears from me or them. If it's them then hahah!! Tissue!! Ok la. Should be ok?? The thick and thin, laughters and gossips, the fun, and the united e24q. That's the one I can't bear to leave. We are all united:( from 15 of April till tmr 13 aug. That's our journey in class together. Gosh!!! I am like tearing now?! Man... It's really hard to say bye ar:'( I can't express them by words. It's just a tooooo too too amazing class

2010-08-10T15:53:00.001+08:00

Waiting for Amelia to end school. Heading to guitar practice at 5.
This morning I felt unwell then took temperature ad found out I got fever-.-38.3 degree. no wonder people feel warm I feel cold-.- chey!
My eyes now damn watery~~"zhiyin dun cry!!" I was like the heck-.- hahah.
Fever fever fever!! Damn you! Hee hee:p
Let it be let it be~~ pray hard ltr the min jun dun come and disturb us-.- damn pissed off with her! Especially Sharon and me! We went out to shout! Buay da Han!

2010-08-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

Just just just home... Phew... Kinda late ya?? Haha... Nvm la. It's for urgent purpose and not for leisure. Furthermore I dun do that often. I did that rarely;)
Another 4more days and all of us gonna be separated, tears and hugs on friday man... Gonna Miss them like shit:(
However we have outings ahead, so... If there's heart, we all still can be together.
Seriously can't wait for the private date. Awkwardness will be a no one la... However, can't bear leaving is a yes one. Hahaha!!!
Outings ahead man!!! BBQ, badminton, seoul, kbox, science centre outing, museum,wax museum,zoo,NIGHT safari,.... Phew!!!!!:)
It's 11 pm, shall bath and go and chat chat alr:) muahahahahha!!!

2010-08-09T19:36:00.001+08:00

Just came back from the clinic. TJ and I went there and the doc thought I was her sister hahha!! We look alike?? No?? Hairstyle only...
I guess I am going to wait till her parents come back la...
TJ confessed saying I miss you to me. And I was freakingly flying way high-.- haah!! Anyway we also found out we both love hearing those words from our own individual friends. Cos we think when our friends tells us those, shows that we are in their mind or heart at that second they tell us:) and that's true:) I love hearing those from friends:)
Just now my blood was seriously boiling, I don't seem to accept the fact. However, it's time to let go and let it fly higher. I believe the other side will be a great one. And it will sure surpass me. In fact, I found out the reason somehow. I guess why I am like that is becos I do not have the sense of security in that friendship. I dun feel safe and I dun feel the willingness and effort on the other side.... Haisss

2010-08-09T15:14:00.003+08:00

Muahaah! I am now like a doctor taking care of a patient:D AHAH! I am at TJ's house.

This morning found out that TJ was sick, high fever. Then no one at home. So i made a trip down to her house. Her temperature was 39! I tell you! When i put my hands on her forehead, i felt what was HOT!!
So i went there, take her temperature and then cook porridge for her and take care of her.
I did some research on something!:D I saw her eyes was watery at first, then went to research why like that, then end up they say high fever will cause tears in the eyes cause of... dunno what what thing one.

She now sleeping alr. So i use her com now:D I felt so like mother now-.- Help her up on bed, bring drinks to her,cook for her, take temperature, change cloth, cover blanket and chat till she sleep-.- people bed time story, i nap time story-.-
ANYWAY! The fever sticker sold in guardian is damn sucky!! I went down to buy when she was asleep and then came up and try, end up.... No use one! I think traditional way better lor.. Lucky her house got ice man... I put cold cloth on her forehead and every 5 mins have to change once. GOSH... worrying.
HAHAHA!! She somehow cried alittle just now as... for some touching reasons la:D And i stammered just now!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! I called her parents and then i stammered. First time seeing a sick patient laughing at the doctor-.- Idiot....
Ok, i shall cook dinner for her now so that ltr she can eat then change her cloth, take one more temperature. If lower down alr then i can leave with a peaceful mind man... Hais poor friend... Heartache man...

Ok bye~~ Update you all again

2010-08-08T11:41:00.003+08:00

Got woken up by tan crystal... -.- Its only 1130...
Slept at 3 ytd. Still wanna sleep but cannot go back to sleep as i have to help crystal do some stuff. Anyway...
Yesterday, i went to science centre with yean lin and her friends for some volunteering briefing. We will be going to science centre during the holidays for some volunteering job: volunteering explaining, lab facilitators or research assistant. Its for four days....... WOW! Anyway:D Belinda and fiona said they wanna visit me~~ Like hospital like tat-.- HAHA!
Ya, morning met yean lin then we went up to platform to meet her friend. Then after that we travel to jurong east interchange and take 335. Attend the talk and then we went to walk around science centre. First that girl want to go to sound section when i wanna go to my fish session-.- NVM! SHE OWE ME ONE! AHAH! Ok then ummmm, ya, when we went there, we go for some show... Its like we are the only teenager there-.- All parents and kids...
Then around 1215 i left them and went meet vivien and leefang.

So met V and LF, we went to have lunch then basketball and then sat at the BBQ area and talk for hours. After that went to vista to eat and DESSERT!!!:D Then went home with vivien, we missed one of our bus. She missed hers by not looking at it. Mine is looking at the bus go:D HAHAHAH!!! Ok ya, then went home around 8+. Then ltr went out again till 1130. WOW!:D

Ok BYE~~~ I go and eat my lunch~ You want? I feed you!:D

2010-08-04T15:59:00.001+08:00

Saddening... Amelia and Yean lin nvr come to school:( Amelia fever Yean lin dun wanna come cos she very tired. Then I have to walk to school alone. Lucky got music:) on my way I saw Nadia:) and!!! Someone hug me from the back. I was freakingly shocked!! It was cass hahah! She always like that. See me must hug one. Weirdo~~~ hahhah!!!
Anyway:) I wanna buy new earpiece alr!!! Looks cool, but lazy to buy-.- then tmr is science. Got eliz. But mufang they all planning to have the first team together again. Team 1. Shall see how tmr. Oh!! Tj was sweet today. She SMS and ask how I feel now, better or not. I was like... Waaa TJ will care for others meh!!! Hahahah!!! Opps:p
One more week!! One more week to holiday!!! Eeeee haaaaa!! Looking forward. Pray hard it's the great time to pull back the clique's bond back. Have fun man!!! Ketchup(catch up)

Cold weather tonight, will you think of me?

2010-08-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

Papa and mummy is coming back tmr. Cant wait to see any of my things are there:D Presents~~
Haha. Tmr is communication. I guess there will be lots of nagging cos of last weeks prob:D Nice show. Nano came online just to complain to me about today's activity and went offline. Cute girl.
After some time, i really udst the truth. I was actually hiding from lots of truth,avoiding them, telling myself "its not like tat". Sometimes even told that it wasnt like that, it wasnt what i thought was. But in fact, they are... nvm.
Nagging/advice/reprimanding/comforting are sometimes useful to some people, but not all. It also have to look at who this person is and also who you are to them. If you are someone, at least some words have been taken into consideration, or maybe even all listen to you.However if you are nobody, why in the world will they wanna listen to you??
Hor "special"!! HAHA! Special, you gonna watch out tmr man! Using codes in my tagboard! And who say you are special man! -.- Dun bhb! Ltr i disclose ur secret to that class then you know:P

Its so late alr. Conver are like dangling around. My songs are already updated/downloaded.

Blood boiling!!!!

2010-08-01T16:58:00.001+08:00

I guess this is my first time shouting at you over the phone ar? First time seeing me like that?? Now I tell you, my words, you wanna listen you do not wanna listen its up to you. But when It come to ur health and life, besides listening to ur parents(which you didn't), please take my advice.
I don't care whether you are scared, you cried or what. Udst? Better wise up. If you don't even care, no one is gonna care. Hear me?
Why am I caring so much?? Because once we enter each other life, we are supposed to care for one another. You entered mine, so your thing will be mine too.

2010-07-30T14:41:00.002+08:00

DONE! Finally done! Really have thanks to all of the them man! Without them i think my work wont be done and i might still be struggling through man! Especially someone:D Thanks.
Finally! WOOO!! So nice doing work together man! Today is OCL ma... then dun need to go to chool. Because OCL is off campus learning whereby we stay at home to do work.
However... I still have to leave house. Guitar at 5. Going to school to eat lunch with amelia. hee hee. Its time to pack and go alr:D bye bye:D Once again, thanks guys :D

2010-07-30T11:36:00.002+08:00

After viewing/linking/reading stuff, i kinda get a clearer explaination alr.
The feeling and content and the responses are all different. Thats the fact. However, one is more on the closer but formal and not active and another is a not close but infomal and lots of joy. This is getting on my nerves as the answer is shown, i know it alr, wanting to accept that, but then...it doesn't seem to get the approval for me to accept that fact.
Sometimes its very clear on which side have power and blah blah blah. Its kinda obvious.
Maybe for now, i should just stick to where i am and what i should do. Not concentrating too much on it, stop putting boundaries for me and my friends/classmates,when it comes just consider it and not saying that "zhiyin cannot you cannot be very very close to them, ltr chaos." And also! I have to stop thinking too highly of myself. I should be clear of who need me/who really take me to their heart as their true friend/ who really wants to be with me/who want to stay by my side.
For now, after all those observations, i think i should stick to "let nature take its course" instead of meddling with it.

For now... I should start my ppt alr. E24Q is spamming each other in our class conver hahaha!! Although we all are in our own house, individual work, but we are still together, our hearts always meet, heart beats as one.

2010-07-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hello.
I really love my class, its like paradise. When you just sulk or feeling down, there are care and concern and jokers. When you felt happy or high, there are people there for you to play along or go crazy with you. UT, we can laugh and crap and do whatever till the last 15 sec then we became silent.
Today, i went into the class with a heavy heart. After some talk with lunch mates, some jokers in the class(laughters and smiles) that makes the class became rowdy and filled with joy, make my heart from heavy to a light one. Left the class with a light heart and felt so much better. Thanks to all of them.
However, tmr is science. Another stress day also, got assigned to do the ppt. And when i do ppt, my face is damn serious and freak all of my members out(like always). Stressed face:D Because to them, i am their happy baby and teddy for cass. So when the happy baby turns not happy, freak them out! Like clown! They smile they play, they look so nice and happy and so comfortable to be with. But when they dun smile, they look scary! damn scary:D
Ok:d Tmr going to leefang's house with amelia and yean lin to play guitar together:D Kinda cool ya?? Sat.... Any plans? Can you all plan? I dunno where to go..
Sunday is like half way settled alr. RP outing!!:D NICE! West coast!:D but till 330 only...:(

2010-07-28T18:15:00.001+08:00

Good decision made. Because if I dun bother and just continue having such lousy communication instead of being aware of it being worst, I think after 1 week of such quality, it will not be just a quarrel, it will also be an end if nothing is done.

The above, why I say those is because lately, my conver on msn and SMS are damn sucky. People who are talking to me should feel it. It's boring, mono and silence. I think tj should udst how it felt as she is the one complaining all this!!!! Ok I shall not go online at home:) else I will affect people that are talking to me. However, meanwhile, I shall do some soul searching. Mentally tired and mentally ill. Shall see doc Tay again. Get some medicine from him. ’你的心很累'

2010-07-28T00:47:00.003+08:00

Ever since the day being scolded, i do not know why i am not talking much. Afraid of disturbing? Afraid of being scolded? Afraid of interrupting? Afraid of.....
Anyway, since nothing was done. Neither there is time to talk, lets just hold on first:D
Tmr is maths:S same team as ... :D Nice:D Thursday might be teaching the three to play songs, however...... not confirmed. Sat i wanna go home late late. But dunno where to go.....
Thurs..... Science. Eliz cant help me anymore. Its my turn to help her:( Because its physics.
Cass have been huggin me whole day long. Weird feeling now. Hmmmmmm.
I have alot things to say. But i think i shall not state it here........ Ltr offend/hurt people. Then more problem popping out-.- So tired alr. Whole month was damn tiring and happening. Cant settle even one, cant even have a nice one, cant even....... ANGER! FRUSTRATION! SAD! TROUBLED! ANGER! ANGER!
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2010-07-26T17:36:00.003+08:00

Mum and dad are going to MACAU from thursday- monday morning. Sad but happy too:D Sad cos i will miss them and the house will be very quiet. Happy because i can go out late late:D Sat and sun:D MUAHAHAHAH! Late late go home:D Me like Me like:D Then friday, maybe can join the rest to walk to cwp:D And enjoy the breeze/silence at night(outdoor):D

Alone in the library now... Lonely~~ I am so lonely~~ HAHAHAHAHA!!! Waiting for Amelia and yean lin. They went for some CAPS meeting. Drinking milk tea in the library. Hee hee. I think i am dumb:D I hold that cup and smiled at the librarian when there said " No outside food and drinks" AHAHAH!!

Today's presentation was very good. faci praised all our class presentation. Because today we are merging with other class. So faci thinks we did better. E24Q! THREE CHEERS! AHAH! Today's class were very very very very united. Because we hate the other class,so we gang up to han tam every team:D HAHA! BOMB QUESTIONS! And when others bomb our class's team, we help the team to shoot them back/help them to answer:D Crystal next to me, i can feel the fire~~ HAHA! Then that mufang next to me, we two kept laughing as... hee hee. secret:D Nice one la! E24Q ROCKS!!!!!

YOG holiday is coming~~ Outing outing and outing:D MUAAHAHA.We can go kbox,steamboat,gathering,house slacking,basketball,badmition,blah blah blah:D
Pray hard yunting can come back for awhile again:P I miss her:D Hee hee.

Last but not least... I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE "GOING HOME LATE" THING:D Hanging out with them:D

OH YA!! FRIDAY NO SCHOOL!!!! MUAHAHAH COOOOOOOOOOOL.

2010-07-22T23:14:00.002+08:00

It was a nice day in Kbox. Singing lots of songs. Cass and Fiona sang alot of love songs with me-.- The weird thing is that, i was just acting out the words, they were all so shy after that-.- VERY FUN! See their shy face~~ wo hui yong yuan ai ni~~
However, today, i finally udst how it felts when someone really really there for you. Today, _ and I were cabbing home, because we were late. Then we both were talking about parents nagging. And she turned to me saying "Got any problem call me, i will be there for you." Then just now, she called me, just to check whether i am alright anot. As you know that my parents nagging at me. Today she damn sweet, kept telling she is there for me then ltr kept calling me her cutie-.- HAHAHAHH!!
Ok la. Tmr got the JYOG thing, should be home late again man!! MUAHAHAHAH!! SAT! GO OUT!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Kinda felt that i lost communication with leefang and vivien. Although i can feel them la, but then.... kinda long we nvr talk alr. Kinda miss the closeness. Dont care! Must ar! Else too late man!

2010-07-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

Being used, being make fun of, being thrown around, being neglected, being.....
When i treat anyone nicely, why is it that they took it for granted? I mean everyone and don't be over sensitive ok!
Being used to entertain when they are bored and soon leave you aside as they found things to do, being made fun of when they get bored and leave me aside as they are sick of it, being neglected when new stuff comes in and throw you away, being thrown around when they do not want me in their life/think that i am just pathetic and just "pass" me to another one to play with.
Is this the way I am supposed to be treated or just that its just an effect for me, forever being there for everyone? hmmm i do not know:D

Anyway! Today! AMELIA,YEAN LIN & ZHIYIN WENT TO WATCH DESPICABLE ME!! We went to golden village in yishun. NICE SHOW!!!! VERY NICE! ENCORE! That siao siao yean lin watched twice alr! Then after went to cwp to look for somethings and we saw Vivien Liew. Zhiyen made a comment saying that when we two meet, we get chilidish. HAVE MEH! I AM MATURE OK! It was vivien liew that's CHILDISH! HOR!!!:D
Tmr formal wear, scary man!! HAHA! Alot do not want to come tmr because they do not want to be a laughing stock. FATIN! You better come ok! I am not controlling you for the formal thing! But i have to do my duty! I have to stop you from partial-ling! I have to pull you to go for guitar practice! So i wanna see you there! UDST!! ELSE I GO TAMPINES FIND YOU!!! And i will get angry ok! MUAHAHAH!!

2010-07-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

Hi~~
TJ SUCKS!:D MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!
Oh hello.
Just came back from the... the... whats that? Some idiotic talk. GEnRe people butt hurts till.. We kept moving + some even asleep man!! Walked to cwp with amelia and nardia. Then bused home with amelia as usual:D Saw her sister. hee hee.
Then reached home --> shower --> on computer~~~:D
Tmr is the LAST paper alr!! Celebrating for leefang's dinner tmr also!! JUST NICE!
I got things to blog leh... but kinda... forget:P Ltr maybe blog again??:D
OK! TIME FOR RJ! Idiot RJ!

2010-07-14T00:22:00.001+08:00

I realized that it was too late to find out that actually my status was being replaced unknowingly. Neither you nor me know. And words don't really mean too much. It is just to be an extra things to say to make things looks better. However, whether I'm being replaced, being named incorrectly, named blindly, named for the sake of naming or for the fun of it does not matter. What matter most is how long it will be, improving??, drifting??, just a daily routine or true heart??

2010-07-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

Seriously my leg stinks!!!!!!!!!!~~~
GROSSSSSS!!!!! :S
Oh, my fingers. The tips! NUMB! HARD!! Stupid guitar strings:@ HAHAHAHA
Tmr... tmr have nothing la except that what "create..." Compulsory for ALL GEnRe. Therefore i get to see fatin again!! Shall cheer her up tmr:D
Tmr also maths! No more cass, my partner, very stress. Lucky got Mufang and Fiona. AND Alvin also.
Then!!! THURS!! MUAAHAHAH!! ELIZABETH!!! She is damn pro. Cos she took A level alr. So... no prob la! No cass for science, got eliz:D
This week, amelia and i ar... STRESS ar!! Got audi,UT,guitar practice and the activities... GOSHHHH....
Ok. I have to talk alr. deng deng deng-.- THERE!! AGAIN! :@GRRRRRRRRRRR

2010-07-10T12:56:00.001+08:00

Haha. Alone on the bus now. Vivien just left at yishun. She damn funny. Called me and ask what time I am meeting my cousins. Because... She wanna eat roti prata-.- but then no time. So we meet to take train together. Cooool.
Haahah. Nice having blog writer in iPhone man:) at least I can post my daily thing or 24/7 hours of interesting stuff:)
Bye:) the song in my iPhone is, I will always be right there next will be I'll remember you. Haha. Weird or what??

2010-07-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

Oh hi blog:D Long time no see~~
HHAHA! Ok just came back from guitar practice. Practically, Fatin and i were not that hyper today. Kinda miss her laughter and the fun. But we said that friday will be the day. SO... lets wait!!:D Did Rj with her, we two in the room only. Romantic~~ HAHA! Chat and got to know each other better. Kinda cool:D
Tmr is the second UT alr. Enterprise. We are trying our very best to understand the problems. Having a slight headache now. Its squeezing.
Tmr is wednesday, and wednesday means maths, maths means FUN AND SLACK!:D But tmr is out last time being in the same team:( However, we are going to appeal to faci to let us choose our team mates for the last 5 weeks:D
Oh! And i realised i was being cheated again. I went to facebook and then found out that... Actually there is nothing between them, no quarrels no nothing. It was just a story created for some reasons. Saddening thing is that i went into to the story.
Ok shall not type so much alr. i am supposed to study one:P Hee hee. Go back to conver.

2010-07-01T16:23:00.001+08:00

Walking alone now. Going home now. Amelia and Yean lin are busy with ignite thing. Miss their companion...
Feeling very sick now. Not much energy to walk so I'm super slow now. I felt like I can't touch the ground and then the road infront is very blur:s
Damn lonely now:s cass and Fiona just left. Gosh... My body and face are not mine today. Oh!! I almost tripped on something:p careless
Whats wrong? Tell me that I am not sick. Damn! If anyone is reading this and if you are bored too. You can SMS me also:)

2010-07-01T14:24:00.001+08:00

It's afternoon now,224. And my mood is super down and no expression. I guess I was being affect by things. Please. Someone help me...:(

2010-06-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

Holy shit!! I didn't start her day correctly! End up making her more fearful and feel
Alone when she need a waking thing. Where is my encouragement? Where is my support towards her? Where the heck am I when I am needed and when I should be there!!!!
I am supposed to make this possible and perfect so in order to gain confi in her learning. At least... God damn it. Zhiyin you damn sucky till I have nothing to say really...

2010-06-29T16:41:00.002+08:00

Those who knows what happened, dont worry. I've talk to her. She is fine now.Really fine. I went down with her and of course she cried terribly.(and faci thought i bullied her when i bloody hell pat her!-.-)
She told me those stuff alr. Ya, she is just sad as their words are damn hurtful. However, i told her she have us la. So please you guys have to really stay by her side ok? For me is a sure la. But please, she need the support, not from me only, please. I will update with you guys bout more ltr. I have to go genre alr. I will update you guys ar! Do not ask in fb or face to face. Just pretend ok?
WA.....Its kinda lucky i have blog man, else how am i going to tell you guys man..
Chaos!!
-sorry for people that read my blog. I know its not bout my life or what but ya, its the only i can communicate with them- thanks and sorry!!!

2010-06-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

Somehow I think I should risk it. Ya. It will be a good choice zhiyin:)

2010-06-28T20:40:00.002+08:00

Wa.. What a long long long day ar...
Saw Belinda walking out to the main road this morning. I was damn shocked. I knew her for two months and i didnt know she lived that near to my house?! COOOOL. Cool thing is that she is my CHR senior. When im sec 2, she's graduating from there. No wonder she say i look familar-.- COOOOL. So today we went home together as amelia and yean lin have something on till 8+. Had great talk and get to know each other better. Nice girl:D

Now, i am staring at the com. HAHA! Felt happy that leefang won that asshole girl man! We shall celebrate one day man! Bloody hell say she want first-.- Hais... Jia you leefang!!:D
Oh i downloaded alot of songs today. New songs~~

Lets pray hard tmr i am with the same team with cass man... If tmr same then we will be in the same team for 3 days:D NICE!

Practically Mufang and crystal are not ok today. One became siao char bo, another one became super horny. Eliz,belinda,cass,fiona and me cannot stand them man!! Like kena possessed:S

I swear during the YOG holidays i want lots of outing with the cliques! Vivien liew! Remember to leave some time for us ok??:D And the rest also! Please leave some empty slots:D Our steamboat,WWW,kbox,bbq and many many many more!!!

吳克群 - 寄生

2010-06-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

This song make my heart heavy and teary eyes. Although i don't really udst what the song is talking but it is really sad. Nothing came to my mind(first time) and then it made me teared. Its the way he sang and the music. Very low. Damn heavy now. Should listen man. I recommend this song.

Maybe maybe

2010-06-27T22:50:00.001+08:00

School tmr. Pray hard can be in the same group as case again:) because I love the feeling of relaxing!!!
Fatin talked to me, she told me that my words made her mind stopped bout partialling. Pray hard she really made it man. Bloody sucker, you have my support man!! Back you up!
Next is that guitar is giving her LOTS of stress. Now guitar practice became very strict and boring too. Cos we practice the same song again and again. Then now new scores come in and we are having difficulties in reading them. I guess rong wei was right. Slowly slowly.
Practicing the L'eau vive song with Amelia. Some day we have to bring the guitar back home to practice. And and and;) I bought my tuner alr!!! cooooool isn't it!! And changed guitar string:) niceeeee hahah.
I swear during the youth olympic I am going to have lots of outing!!! I swear!!
And ytd in my mind I saw the uncle. Haha. Cooooooool.
Ok bye good night

2010-06-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

Im back~~
Toy story 3 tmr!!! COOOOOOL! Got people watching with me:D Touched~~ Amelia, Amanda, leefang, Vivien and yean lin:D

Just came back from GEnRe. Fatin made her first promise to me. She promised me not to partial(attend half the lesson) alr. Although she felt guilty, but i told her " Get over with this, you cant turn back the clock. No use getting so frustrated with urself. So please just tell urself not to do that again. I will be there to guide you through"
And straight thereafter, i saw tears in her eyes. So i stopped those words and break the atmosphere. She smiled, she laughed of with my craps and still,crap. My job was well done:D Anyway, she promised me and request me to help her through with it:D I will, sure:D Scold her and remind her bout our promise if she were to partial again:D

Today, group together with cass again! Three days in a row you know! How cool~~ I think we can really be partners man! I mean, she do ppt and i will take care of the rest. So we finished everything at 1043:D COOL OR WHAT!! And the other two did not do anything:D Like it:D Then of course we two slacked, talk,listen to music,play games:D

AMELIA AND I GONNA HAVE AUDITION FOR THE CHANNEL 5 "OMG MOMENT OF GLORY THING"!!! SCARY~~~ Time to practice~~

Nothing to blog leh... Wanna talk bout today's life. But then, dunno how to say... Faci had a one to one talk with me-.-

2010-06-24T16:22:00.006+08:00

Evening: 4:22pm(library)
Gosh... I am alone in the library, waiting for A and YL. Lonely~~ i am so lonely~~ Anyone wanna text me??:D HAHAHA!!
Today was kinda nice for me and partner. We started the PPT and Ws early and we end it super duper uuper early. Then we slack all the way when people there are stress. We played game, da bao, ate, talked, sent music, intro music and sing song!!:D
HAHA! oh ok. Umm its kinda cool here as you have ur own table here in the library, really own table.
Ltr mum and dad will be here to fetch me and have dinner together. My mum and leefang are together now, they called me during lesson. Funny~~
OH!!! VIBRATION!!!! HAHAHAAHAHHA!!! TJ MESSAGE ME ALR!!:D SHE FELT ME?! OK OK BYE BYE!!~~ :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Night: 10:16pm(room)
Cool or what? I saw vivien liew! At woodgrove! A place where is less possible to see each other.
So i saw her and i was like "vivien liew!" (unbelievable face) Then my mum followed me and said "vivien liew!" Mum said that we really have cool fate. Cos of the name tag thing and also the escalator thing and this thing. My reaction was -.-
HAHAAH!! Retard~~
Had a total painful gastric just now, pain till i cant move, so have to sit at the seats outside NTUC. Then when i think i can, i told my mum lets go and dad fetched us back. Kinda cool cos my iphone, i update it to Iphone4 system.
Tmr got guitar, hope Fatin wont leave me alone man... Tuesday, i was not there and i heard from Amelia she wasn't that high. Then if tmr she not there then, how i get high also:( Sharon? Lijun? HAHA! Nvm i find Amelia:D
Should i sleep or wait leh? Wait, ltr wait till 12am how?? I can faint alr. HAHA! Ok i think i will be worrying this and that. I think nvm, i try my best to stay and then find out come back alr anot then go off and SLEEP:D

2010-06-24T08:29:00.001+08:00

Yo yo~~
i am so bored and restless....
I am so lazy to tighten my muslces to smile/do any expression
Oh no...
OH! Science today! Should be good right? Got my partner... :D
HAIS!
dunno what to say alr. BYE~~

2010-06-22T18:21:00.001+08:00

Thought of it just now, there are many barriers for me to do things. Of course I know what you want, but the main thing is that I just could not bring myself to do it. There are barriers. I repeat.

2010-06-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

Now, we are in south food court. Three laptops are shown. Two white, one pink. The girl girl style using the white, the man man style using the pink. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!
Three doing RJ BUT!!! Keep on side tracking. One listening to music and then staring at RJ page. The other one(me) Blogging for no good reason. The other one.... DONE! MUAHAHAHA!!!
Bye~~ i have to ENTERTAIN Ah lin:D

2010-06-22T12:26:00.001+08:00

The worst feeling is being forgotten, by someone you will never forget.

2010-06-21T23:15:00.002+08:00

Met tj after resting at home today. Obviously she dont look ok.
Talked to her at the playground there,because i knew she dun like people seeing her cry.
Kinda sad to hear her story but what i can do is just advice and pat/hug her and of course lend her my shoulders la.
What's wrong with people lately? Is june an emo month? First was our yunting. Now its our tj. Its always them. Why why why. Nvm at least i am proud to say yunting want was alr DONE:D Now its tj:D You will be fine la. Wait for me to untangle more ok:D

Today... hands.... dun want to talk bout that la, facebook showed it. Seriously internet is getting super boring now.... Msn... hais...

Nvm la, i shall stop here. i also dunno what to blog about alr

2010-06-21T13:11:00.002+08:00

Things cant just replay again.
Hands are getting worst. Its turning brown. Should be seeing the doc la. Since everyone is complaining in class... Hais.
Just went round to interview for today's problem. Weird but fun:D
Continue tonight. BYE~

HOT HOT HOT!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-20T20:23:00.003+08:00

I am using three fingers to type now. Will explain why ltr.
Woke up at 1254pm today. And met leefang to pass her the drinks, i mean... we cycled to her house to "deliver" the drinks. Then met vivien at 2. Had lunch and we went to cold storage to buy the ingredients for tonight.
We have, sweet sour pork,vegetable,yong dao fu soup,salmon fish and pasta!!:D
Walked back from cwp and chatted on the way there. And the funniest thing was that the security guard really think that we are sisters!! HAAH! No need to sign in.
They just left not long ago anyway.
Alright explaination for the hands thing? I scald my hand, its cooked now. I mean deep fry. The 90 degree oil just pour over my hands. My HANDS!!!! HOT!!!!!!! Now its like super duper red. In the picture wun show that read but seriously, ITS RED. And of course swollen. Pricking hot now inside. Cant bear the pain..... Because of my carelessness, i touched the pan(just finish DEEP FRYING the pork), and then i accidentally moved it and the pan just drop, so my reaction was to catch it. But i did not think bout the oil, therefore the whole oil just spill on my hands, seriously HOT! FIRE HOT!!! CANNOT STAND THE PAIN TILL NOW. Not even having energy to hold the spoon-.-

2010-06-20T00:44:00.003+08:00

H a t r e d says:
*simi tai chi ah?!
*hahahhaha
LAM-E ZHIYIN says:
*NANI?!
*hahahahahaahah
H a t r e d says:
*HAHAHHAHAH!
*MUST TURN HEAD SIDEWAYS AH
LAM-E ZHIYIN says:
*ok:D
H a t r e d says:
*LOL!
*I MISS YOU GUYS ALREADY WOOOTS!
*ESP ZHI YIN
LAM-E ZHIYIN says:
*you all ar, in the noon keeep on deng deng deng me
H a t r e d says:
*I CANNOT HIGH WITHOUT HER!!!
Blind Seer says:
*deng deng deng?
LAM-E ZHIYIN says:
*HAHAHAHA!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!:D
Blind Seer says:
*o.O
LAM-E ZHIYIN says:
*deng deng deng is the sound made when people msn you

GEnRE is really talkative man! Kept deng deng deng me, Fatin! Made me smile when i read tat! Actually there is someone missing me!! WOW! HAHAHAH!! SIAO! NANI?? Ok, i have nothing to do...

Anyone at home??

2010-06-19T20:05:00.001+08:00

Now im in my aunt's house. Just fed my nephew. Phew... They are now watching the FIFA world cup. And I felt super lonely without any cousin... :(saddening. Haha. Nvm I think I shall SMS people to disturb them:) muahahahahah!!! I ate soursop!!! Mummilious!! And I think my head and leg problem is here again-.- crap....
Going out tmr but my question is where are we going???

2010-06-19T01:46:00.002+08:00

做你的外套只能穿梭你的外表
听到你对她的撒娇可笑的是我没资格计较
做你的外套拥抱著却不被拥抱
我是谁你知不知道怎能随便穿上又换掉

All the things i do, credits she takes. Do you know the importance and the position I'm in? Standing in the circle but was not in the situation it should really be.

2010-06-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday fatin!!:D I know you love sitting next to me la:D My guitar partner! Remember variation 2 anot! i record for you alr leh! HAAH! I am IN and u are SANE! HAHA! I know you like the suprise:D Always hope we can be as insane as now, smiling at each other while we are following instructor's conducting:D I hope i can always be the power medicine:D

Today is friday, super tired, gonna sleep for 10 hours, if i can of course:D Going to aunt's house to accompany her, i wanna spend more time with her. Then sunday going out with Vivien and Lee fang.
kinda think that i am really into GenRe alr. Love the bondings there and the way we learn music together:D We sang when the senior played the chords for us. Mini concert:D
Ai ya... sian alr... bye~~

Hello

2010-06-17T22:00:00.001+08:00

Oh my... Super tired now... I feel like sleeping but I can't cos my hair still wet. Talked to leefang just now, then did rj and...
Actuall I also do not know what to say:) I kept thinking of what that weird uncle told me ytd. Is that the other person have to tell me or we have to tell each other? I also do not who is he talking about. Is her or her?? Hahah.
Anyway ytd I was being asked to leave her alone, so I think, zhiyin:) Lets not interfere ok?? Ok!:)
Oh! Chef at home! Ok bye~~

2010-06-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

Just came back. Went for dinner with Siman, Sheena, Maxine, Vivien, Sherlyn and Irene.
Walked back with sheena and siman. Left half way cos i wanna do RJ and also i think stay there then dun talk like... abit no use leh.. HAHA!
Tmr is the last day before i can rest again. I really really very tired this week. I dunno why. Total weak one..I think tmr i am going to sleeep for more than 10 hours! I DONT CARE!
But tmr got GEnRE till 9+... WOOHOO!! I can talk to fatin alr! Saw her today, and i finally realised what she said was true!!! I am really her power medicine!! She was total mono in the lift, then she saw me, she high until like shit and laugh till squat down. WEIRD LEH! But kinda fun la, i love people laughing cos at least i know that they are happy/enjoying the talk. Tmr i shall disturb her again. MUAHAHAHAHA!!

2010-06-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hi. Now its my laptop:D Today was long day and super sleepy day. However, we did a great job in presentation, the only team to answer all questions:D Well done team:D
While walking from esso to casa, there's this uncle, he look decent. Then he came to me, he looked at me from far alr actually, then he came. He told me, "you and that one(he said 那个人) should be frank and speak out what you two are thinking inside". Then he smiled and pat my shoulder. Weird:S
Damn scary, i dun dare to tell my mum else ltr she too gan jiong ar... then dun allow me to go out alone. HAHA! But my question was that... Who is he and why do he said that?? Hmm....
Tmr is science!! And lucky cassandra is still in my group!! We can one la! We two are the working partners leh! Hor??:D Chiong then can let everyone slack alr:D Then can produce good work too:D Dun smile too much la!!~~ AHHAAHHAHHAHA!!
Ok, bye bye. I go and do my stuff alr:d

Testing testing:)

2010-06-16T20:50:00.001+08:00

Hajah!! I was just trying the new application downloaded becos I wanna
Blog when I'm bored outside. So now with this I can blog where ever I am!!!:) happy happy happy. Tmr meeting Vivien and Maxine and I think Sherlyn and Siman and Irene and Sheena. The I think one is not confirmed one:)

WAYS TO CURE HEADACHE

2010-06-15T08:29:00.002+08:00

MAJOR CAUSE:
*nutrition
*stress
*hormonal changes
*eye problem
* Sleep: the long, short or irregular sleep
* Weather Conditions: Changes in temperature or weather conditions
* Strong odours
* High altitude
* Strong lights(YOUR COMPUTER!)
* Delay meals or not eating at all
* Dehydration

Try breathing exercises. Sit with your legs crossed and take a deep breath, letting your lungs fill with clean air. Do this atleast 10 times. Now, close your right nostril with your right index finger. Take a deep breath through the left nostril, wait for 1-2 seconds, release your right nostril and exhale the air from it. Repeat with the left nostril closed.

Massage your eyes with the three middle fingers, keeping the balls of the fingers on the eyebrows. With the help of the fingertips, make gentle circular motions over the eyeballs.
Gently massage your temples with the help of your fingertips. If possible, ask someone to massage the nape of your neck, the shoulders and neck muscles.
Headaches are mainly the result of stress. Try to relax your mind by indulging in meditation or taking a peaceful nap.
Take a warm, luxurious bath. It helps in easing the muscles and also makes you feel very relaxed.
Lie down on the bed and close your eyes. Now put cool cucumber slices over the eyes and keep lying. It will help you relax.
You can also keep cotton dipped in cold water on your forehead. This brings relief from headache caused by excessive sun exposure or heat. However, make sure that the water is not too chilly.
Chill curd/yoghurt in the fridge and apply a thick coat of it on your forehead and the area around your eyes. Headaches, caused due to heat, become better with this.
Listen to soft, soothing music on the stereo. Do not put on headphones, as they might increase the intensity of the headache.
Dehydration is one of the major causes of headaches. So, try drinking lots of water and make sure that you do not sweat too much.
Never ever keep a long gap between two meals. If it has been a long time since you had your last meal, eat something. The headache might be the result of hunger.
In summers, try having something like fresh lime, to get rid of headaches.

2010-06-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

Now i am in REEL ROOM with low yean lin! SHE IS INSANE! WITH THE CHIPMUNKS THING SHE HAVE IN HER LAPTOP!
Scary i tell you! HAHA. We are waiting for amelia. When i have waited for one hour and 15 mins, Realised that my dad fetching to see the doc today-.- Because my injuries got infected and waited for few days and its not recovering. So therefore i have to go and visit the doc.... HAIS!!
Super tired today la... Damn warm on my forehead but i know its not fever. So phew~~
OH! AMELIA IS DONE!!:D :D BYE~~~